Monday, January 21st, 2008
Why I choose this topic?
A friend of mine came to me the other day, he was so frustrated and kinda messed up judging from the way he talk and react. He was an energetic person yet comfortable to be with at all time, but the story of his downfall start from the day she met this girl…his junior. He tot this might be a new beginning of a new chapter in his life.. things seems to be perfect at first with all the wonderfull stuff he told me… but everything change when he try to convince this girl that he can be the person on her life.
Things got a lil bit messed up when he asked for her honesty in everything that he asked for. It turn that this girl had a mixture of feelings towards him and worst some other guy to be tagged with. Its not the girl problem…. Because its hers not him. He made the wrong choice by giving everything ..i mean everything on love towards this girl…his commitment his time and his will…. And that’s the turning point of the wonderful tale of this chapter of his life. Things got messed up day by day till yesterday.. he came to me and we talked bout PSM… while we talking bout it… he broke down and started to talked bout his miserable life right now.
The girl, who seems to be the nicest girl to him had turned him into some incompetent person he can be. He can barely thing bout others but keep on thinking bout that person. He tried to move on but I do will take him awhile to get over it..and seriously by the way he reacted..its gonna take a long long long time before it is possible to get it cleared.
None of his colleague do really know bout his current situation accept the wonderful tales he told them before…accept for me… he brokedown with tears of hopeless soul and then I know that his no more going to be the person he used to be in such a short period of time. He no longer makes funny jokes around for the past few weeks and it is impossible for him to make it one ….
What I afraid of his current situation now is if this might effect his performance in his studies and work. Im not the person who can give comfortable words and solution if his problem… so I just sit there and became a good listener… seriously… im speechless. I tried to convince him that love is not something that we can choose ..but its something that God wants it to be.
to that girl, thank you for making him realize earlier (not so early lar until this point) but at least before anything worst than this happen.
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Monday, December 24th, 2007
And love knocked her door, with a sweet surprise.
"Hello there" love said, "I’m here to spread some love".
"Dear Love: she replied.
"please stop knocking my door,
don’t you know you’re asking a soulless?
so worthless?
you’re a reject,
you’re a no one,
thank you very much….love."
And love is still waiting at her door…..and finally after the hard self-pity malancoly, melodramatic story, love withdraw from it with a tears on his eyes.
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Saturday, December 22nd, 2007
Ehmm its been awhile since the last time i update my blog, been busy with stuff in KL and got no time to log on to internet to write bout things that i had in mind.
Ok today im not going to write bout any political related stuff but going to write bout my personal experienced since the day i reach back to my hometown in KL. Its been 6 months and lotsa things had changed, including people. I was kinda happy for few of my friend who is going to get married or married within the timeframe of 3rd, 4th quater of 2007. How bout me? nah its still early neway, all myfrens are kind of late 20’s and im considered the youngest in the group so, its still early even to think bout getting a girlfriend. Not to say im an anti social person but i had one and it ended up a mess. I need to seach for a secured my place for a good job soon. This is world..
I tried, but i failed. Do i need to try again? for the time being …maybe no since i already failed way before i start it. Its like going from A - Z but without any other alphabetical character in between instead filled with a single dashed.
Ehmm talking bout this love thingy, i had story to shared with you guys out there? A friend of mine told me his story while we lepaking at the mamak’s. He told me:-
Character
A - a girl, University Student
B - a friend of A
C - him
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C met A whom to be his junior at the University, become good friend and after 6 months of friendship C confessed to A that he actually fall in love with A. A in return do say the same thing but A said that she is kind off not ready although she confirmed bout 60% or less that she do feel the same thing towards C. C was shocked and this is where B came in. A told C bout this B that A knew for 3 years. A dont know bout B feelings towards her but A is kind of like this B same as she likes C.
C, as a guy asked A several times bout how much difference between him and B in detail. One night, C asked A and A said that "right now" she feel it heavier/more/ on C’s side rather than B but C knows that A do keep her feelings towards B by an equally amount of A’s feelings towards C. C was afraid that the realtionship just not going to work since A always talk the good things bout B and can describe the goodness of B’s in an essay while barely can describe C’s stuff in a paragraph. So on that night, C told hhimself;
"its not going to work, its better for her to go with B and as for me, stay as a close friend rather than nuthing"
C sacrifice his feelings of needs towards A and know that sometimes the only way to let someone that we loved is to allow the loved ones to go by his/her choice. So, C although he’s going to hurt himself by doing this but he let A go and asked A to directly confront B.
A did like what C told her and A finally realize that she and B are on the same boat.
C knew bout their same bout thingy and knew that its going to hurt THIS (sorry no graphical representation) much to himself but kept it cool and think positive, he told himself that its better to be with A as a friend rather than lose her forever.
C didnt really care bout A’s reason after she told C bout the same bout stuff anymore because C knew that A do hold a high percentage of feelings towards B rather than C and C still remember a night before when he asked A who would A rather be with. and A said its B.
C try to keep things calm and cool and will try to maintain his relationship as a good friend towards A. But….
C was too burden to keep it to himself and burst it out, C actually cant do it…its because of his deep feelings towards A.
end of story
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ehmm, love hurts…. i dont know what to say to C when he told me the entire story, he even told me everything from th start on how he knew this A and i personally find it unique.. but i do hope that C can get over it and find someone else equally or better than A.
Any comments"??
what should C do and what should A do?
I personally know C and i think i know this girl, A…
I told C that its time to move on and accept the fact that A is no longer available, keep things in the shelve for ur sweet time memories and try to keep the communication and relationship level on the "normal" friend level since it might trigger something else if C try to get A back…
pity him
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